"Goodbye my almost lover. Goodbye my hopeless dream. I'm trying not to think about you. Can't you just let me be?"A good while ago, one of my closest friends said this:
"You know that feeling you get when you wish
that one person would kiss you but they don't?
And they ask you what you're thinking about but
you don't tell them. They just stare into your eyes
and it takes all of your self control not to grab them
and never let go. Well I do. And when they ask you
what you're thinking about, don't say "Oh nothing."
or "It doesn't matter." Because you both know
deep down that it does matter and if you let that
moment go, you many never get another. So be
wise with what you think, even wiser with what you
say, but be most wise with what you do."
I just found that old quote in a random folder on my computer, and it made me want to talk about the most complex and most confusing emotion.
Love.
Love can come in many shapes and forms. There's the love you have for your family and friends, but I want to talk about the love you feel for that one person who makes you happier than anyone else could ever hope you make you.
Now, I may be young, but I've felt my share of love. I've had that crush that, you know, you just don't want to tell them. You get those butterflies every time you see them, are around them, they smile at you, you hear their voice, when they say your name. You get all shy and giddy around. I've had that obsessive love. Where they are the only thing you want to talk about, only thing on your mind 24/7. You need to know as much about them as you can know. I've had the untouchable love. A few times, actually. The person that you want so much, care about so much, just NEED, but you can't have them. The fact that you can't have them just makes you want them more.
Love is pretty much an unconditional affection with no limits or conditions.
But with most love, you get heartbreak. Now, heartbreak is the probably one of the most painful things you can feel emotionally. It's especially damaging the first time, and even worse if you're old enough to have known better. One may feel heartbreak when a (romantic) relationship comes to an end or when one has been cheated on or something like that. You cannot think about anything except for the awful pain you feel and how much you hate the person for leaving you, and at the same time desperately want them back. Heartbreak is very scary, and yes it does hurt, but it's something that you just have to deal with. Feel sad for the right amount of time, then pick up the pieces and move on.
But the last type of love is the most special. It's the love you have for that ONE person. Your soul mate. When you feel it, you know it (so I've heard). You know they are the one. The person you desperately want to spend the rest of your life with. It's complete trust that your thoughts and feelings and other aspects (if not all aspects) of your life/self will be safe in the hands of another. You love them with all your heart. In time, the butterflies you felt for them go away, but the love is still intense, because honestly. You can't live with butterflies forever.
I am also a believer in love at first sight, in a way. I don't think it's truly "love" but you know there is something special about that person. You know they are different about them. Something you like and want to know more about. Just because love takes time.
Now, there's infatuation which is not to be confused for love. Infatuation is liking everything about a person, and seeing them as perfect. you do not see their flaws, just overlook them and act like they are perfect, but with love, you see their flaws, and just accept them. Or infatuation can be only an attraction for another person based only on what you initially see and not what you know about them. You do NOT know that person yet. It is only an attraction to someone based on what you WANT them to be verses who they really are.
-By the way, the quote was from my best friend, Tyler Ballew.
