Over the last few days I've been feeling a mixture of happiness and sadness. Something good happens, then something bad happens.
In the last few days I have made plans twice, both were canceled. Got asked out by the guy I liked, then dumped two hours later. And felt really close to my best friend, then remembered how distant we are from each other.
I don't see why all this keeps happening to me. Why can't I just get something I want and keep it? I feel like after anything good happens, as soon as I turn my back, it's going to disappear. I hate feeling like I'm never going to get what I want.
Then I get something I want, having wanting it for so long, then it's ripped away from me.
I just want everything to go MY way for once. I feel like I never get a time for everything in my life to just go right. I think I'm now afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens.
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