Hush

"It's amazing how much somebody can break your heart and still you love them with every broken piece of it."

I woke up this morning to really loud thunder. I laid in bed for a while just watching the rain and hearing it angrily fall to the ground. I laid there for a good hour, just thinking. Thinking about everything. No real topic. I just let my thoughts bounce around from one thing to another. At one point I was thinking about school.
School is starting next Monday. Ah, I really am not looking forward to it. I don't see why anyone is. Sure, it's nice to go back and see all your friends. Something new yet again. Buy new clothes and new supplies. Meet your teachers. Okay, but what after all the new-ness wears off? Then what? You're stuck with the everyday, waking up early, going to school and sitting through boring classes. You become sick of the homework and tired of the drama. Then all you want is the summer to come back. Sure school gives you something to do every day, but I'd rather be bored and be able to sleep, stay up until 3:00 Am and wake up at 11:30 than be stuck with school work for 8 hours a day and waking up at 6:00 Am. I just don't see why people look forward to it. Everyone gets grounded because their grades are slipping. Ewwww, right? Well duh.

So I guess I lied to myself about this summer though. I thought it was going to be great. I thought something great would happen. But it didn't. Nothing new happened. Nothing changed. Well, maybe something did happen. I got one thing I was looking for. I found a comfort with everything. I'm comfortable. I'm not exactly HAPPY per-say, but I am okay. I don't know if it's me really being okay/content or it's the numbness. But what ever it is, it's nicer than being depressed all the time. So that's the one thing I got out of this summer. Comfort.

So, I think I'm addicted to the show Sex and the City. It's pretty amazing. It makes me want to grow up and move to New York. Which I already want to do. But their lives seem so exciting and interesting.

Oh and also! The new Cobra Starship album "Hot Mess" came out the other. Let me just say, it is AMAZING. Really. Cobra Starship never seems to let me down (: