Misery loves company.

I need one person. Only one.
I need someone who is my other half.
I need someone who cares.
I need someone who loves me inside and out.
I need someone who won't hurt me.
I need someone who is always on my side.
I need someone who won't use me.
I need someone who asks me what's wrong when I'm sad.
I need someone who will sit with me when I cry.
I need someone who won't make me only forget, but make everything better.
I need someone who won't leave me high and dry.
I need someone who can love with their heart and soul.
I need someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them.

I need someone.






I need you.

Like a hard candy with a surprise center.

I'm gonna push on in this bullshit causing, drama infested, ignorant inhabited, violence generated, love rejecting, self-centered world for many more years to come.

They can't throw me out yet.

With friends like mine, the world seems like such a brighter place. Almost a calming, peaceful, caring place where I actually matter.

And that my friend, is what real friendship is.
None of that stabbing in the back bull crap.
We don't roll that way.



~Dedicated to Tyler Ballew, Ayah Hamza, Regina Panelo, Chris Pecci, Brielle Liebman, Amberly Gott, Jacquelyn Escange, Makenzie Escagne, Emily Spoon <3

Give me anything.

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face.
It's up to you to decide whether it's real or fake.

In my head, I see you all over me.

In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.


(;

I'll leave the light on if you promise you'll come home.

I'm using this blog to take some of my old Livejournal posts and sort of talk to myself from the past. To sort of "show myself" where I've come and what has happened from them. I know it seems weird, but I think it seems cool. I wasn't very happy, so none of these really are gonna be sweet and shit.

March 2nd, 2009
"I would really love to get what I want one day.
I would love for someone to love me back.
I would love to have more than one reason to smile.
I would love to do more with my life.
I'd love to have something to look forward to every day.

But no.
I guess I'm glad, in a way.
Hearing you say that you don't care and that you don't give a damn about all the hearts you've ever broken, really put it into perspective for me.
Maybe you weren't thinking when you said it,
or maybe you still don't realize how many times you've hurt me.

It's hard to say I love you, but it's easy to realize that I really do care about you."


God dammit, Molly. What the hell is wrong with you? Take a chill pill and calm the fuck down. You're okay. Trust me, everything is fine. I really don't know why you were so pissed. No one was even talking to you. Just stfu, girl.

February 7th, 2009
"I just feel like I don't matter anymore :|"

Oh, Molly. I remember this :/ It's okay. You do matter. You always have. Distance is just getting the best of you.

January 29th, 2009
"Even though saying goodbye is the hardest thing for me to do,
saying "I love you and I miss you" and hearing you say it back
always seems to make up for it."

OMG. I remember that. It always made me happy.

January 24th, 2009
"I love the little things you do.
The ones you don't even realize.
I love your smile.
How you're so happy when you see me.
I love your hugs.
Every time you open your arms to hug me, I get excited.
I love your scent.
It's like a drug to me.
I love your eyes.
I think I could stare into them for forever.
And the nights when we talk until 2 am.
Having you talk to me until I fall asleep.
Your voice is so soothing and relaxing; I can 't help but feel warm and safe.
Saying goodbye to you is the hardest thing I have to do.
And I feel as If I've said it too many times."

So right. Yep yep yep. Memories.
No more saying "goodbye".
Only hello hello hello (:

January 18th, 2009
"I'm proud of who I am.
I miss my past, but wouldn't go back.
I'm scared of the future, yet I'm looking forward to see what is coming my way.
I'm happy to say that I have great friends, and little, close to none, enemies.
I haven't made many huge mistakes in my life that can't be fixed.
& I plan to keep it that way.

I'm not like most girls my age who change themselves to fit in.
I don't spend hundreds of dollars on clothes that are "fashionable".
I won't give everything I have to the first boy who comes my way.
I don't need other's opinions to feel good about myself.
I don't go around putting myself down to get compliments from other people.
& I'm not going to complain about how my life sucks.
Because it doesn't."


WORD GIRLFRAN. WORD.

January 17th, 2009
"Goodbye;
forever.


Things will never be the same.
:/"

Biggest lie ever. Everything is the same and you know it won't change.
Stfuuuuu!

I don't how I'm meant to feel anymore.

When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear.


It's too easy to lose yourself in High School. It's too easy to forget about everything and jump into the pool of young teenagers running a muck and being immature. It's too easy to forget that some people aren't really the same as the front they put up in front of others. It's too easy to lose trust. It's too easy to pick the wrong crowd. It's too easy to forget the person you really are, and begin to turn into the people you're around. It's too easy to give 2nd chances.

It's hard to jump out of the drama that comes with everything. It's hard to be the person you want to be. It's hard not to give into peer pressure.

But it's even harder to walk this world alone when your friends have given up on you, and you're played by the people you've left them for.

"Before you ask which way to go, remember where you've been."
-Alex Gaskarth

Say something you know they'll wanna hear.

Maybe they'll listen up if you speak loud enough.