I'll leave the light on if you promise you'll come home.

I'm using this blog to take some of my old Livejournal posts and sort of talk to myself from the past. To sort of "show myself" where I've come and what has happened from them. I know it seems weird, but I think it seems cool. I wasn't very happy, so none of these really are gonna be sweet and shit.

March 2nd, 2009
"I would really love to get what I want one day.
I would love for someone to love me back.
I would love to have more than one reason to smile.
I would love to do more with my life.
I'd love to have something to look forward to every day.

But no.
I guess I'm glad, in a way.
Hearing you say that you don't care and that you don't give a damn about all the hearts you've ever broken, really put it into perspective for me.
Maybe you weren't thinking when you said it,
or maybe you still don't realize how many times you've hurt me.

It's hard to say I love you, but it's easy to realize that I really do care about you."


God dammit, Molly. What the hell is wrong with you? Take a chill pill and calm the fuck down. You're okay. Trust me, everything is fine. I really don't know why you were so pissed. No one was even talking to you. Just stfu, girl.

February 7th, 2009
"I just feel like I don't matter anymore :|"

Oh, Molly. I remember this :/ It's okay. You do matter. You always have. Distance is just getting the best of you.

January 29th, 2009
"Even though saying goodbye is the hardest thing for me to do,
saying "I love you and I miss you" and hearing you say it back
always seems to make up for it."

OMG. I remember that. It always made me happy.

January 24th, 2009
"I love the little things you do.
The ones you don't even realize.
I love your smile.
How you're so happy when you see me.
I love your hugs.
Every time you open your arms to hug me, I get excited.
I love your scent.
It's like a drug to me.
I love your eyes.
I think I could stare into them for forever.
And the nights when we talk until 2 am.
Having you talk to me until I fall asleep.
Your voice is so soothing and relaxing; I can 't help but feel warm and safe.
Saying goodbye to you is the hardest thing I have to do.
And I feel as If I've said it too many times."

So right. Yep yep yep. Memories.
No more saying "goodbye".
Only hello hello hello (:

January 18th, 2009
"I'm proud of who I am.
I miss my past, but wouldn't go back.
I'm scared of the future, yet I'm looking forward to see what is coming my way.
I'm happy to say that I have great friends, and little, close to none, enemies.
I haven't made many huge mistakes in my life that can't be fixed.
& I plan to keep it that way.

I'm not like most girls my age who change themselves to fit in.
I don't spend hundreds of dollars on clothes that are "fashionable".
I won't give everything I have to the first boy who comes my way.
I don't need other's opinions to feel good about myself.
I don't go around putting myself down to get compliments from other people.
& I'm not going to complain about how my life sucks.
Because it doesn't."


WORD GIRLFRAN. WORD.

January 17th, 2009
"Goodbye;
forever.


Things will never be the same.
:/"

Biggest lie ever. Everything is the same and you know it won't change.
Stfuuuuu!