Down and Out.

Now that I'm grown I've seen marriages fall to pieces.
Now that I'm grown I've seen friendships fall to pieces.
Weekend warriors, and our best friends.
The writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end.
Then again some things, then again some things are far too good,
Some things are far too good to go ahead and let go.

Bitter sweet love.

He's smart and just oh so funny.
He's got a deep soul and face that's just too lovely.
He thinks he's never wrong,
because most of the time he is right.
Yet on the occasions that changes,
he'll most likely start a fight.
He usually gets what he wants.
Everything his handed over.
Even with relationships;
he's always got a new lover.
He holds his head so tall,
at you'd the he's oh so strong.
But I know on the inside,
he's simply innocent and small.
He's the sweetest boy I've ever met.
Almost anyone will agree.
He makes everything seem so easy.
For him, it's as natural as summer breeze.
I don't think he'll ever know just how hard I fell for him.
And you know what?
That's just fine.
Because as long as I walk this earth,
I'll know he wasn't ever really mine.

You only live once, now take this to heart.

"Smile like you don't give a damn about the consequence.
Just say anything.
We say summer holds such wonderful things."
-All Time Low

Summer 2010 starts today. This is the quote I will be living by.

When it rains...

[I] shou[l]d be [ove]r [you.]

The girl's a straight up hustler.

I've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you to dwell, in this endeavor.
Make this last forever...
I'm just delirious.
You can't be serious.
You're so infamous for leaving me a mess...

Take off your makeup, and put down the camera.
Choke on the drama that makes me want to tear up the pictures and pages you've saved.
Creating a life of trends and make believe.

She gets what she wants and she breaks what she gets.
Get out while you can or she'll tear you to pieces.

"Are you having a good time sweetheart?"

Arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to.

I've realized that I'm missing something. Something I really need.

Confidence. ; (adj) assurance: freedom from doubt; belief in yourself and your abilities


I need more confidence in myself. How am I going to get anywhere if I don't believe enough in myself. And if I don't believe in myself, then who else is? I have to be more bold and outgoing. Straight forward. Not worry about what other people are thinking or saying. Because in all reality, nothing they say matters. I have to be more confident.

Confidence is what separates the men from the boys, am I right?
Confidence is that "absolute couldn't-care-fucking-less-what-every-fucking-body thinks" kind of attitude.
Confidence is sexy.

That's just what I need.

We're all part of the same sick little games, and I need a get-away.

I sort of feel like I'm being pushed to the side and forgotten.
I also feel like nothing comes as easy for me as it does for my friends.

Like, a lot of the people I know just keep getting everything they want. They don't realize it, but when they want something, they get it. For me, I want something, and I kinda sorta hope I get it, but I'm usually let down. Like why me? What did I do to deserve being ignored? My wants and needs are just as important as anyone else's, right?
It just comes so easy. Given like candy.
For me, it's like someone showing this great piece of candy, but laughs and says I can't have it.

I don't feel like I've done anything wrong. I don't feel like there's anything wrong with me. But it kinda upsets me when people get exactly what they want CONSTANTLY and they barely have to work for it. It kinda just falls out of the sky onto their lap.
Why can't I get that lucky?

How do I get what I want?