Ahhh! This is driving me insane! I've said it once, and I'll say it again. I want to stop this madness. I want to drop all of this. I hate being so confused. I hate forcing myself not to do things.
My heart. My stupid heart. It knows what it wants.
Then my mind. My smart mind. It knows what's best for me. It actually thinks things through.
But when they work together, I get a massive mess. Because I know what I want, and I know what I need. I know when something is bad for me, but my heart tells me it doesn't matter.
I'm really weird. When I see something, or hear something that effects me, whether it's a good or bad way, I'll replay it over and over in my mind. Sort of making a mini video of it playing in my head. Anytime I'm not focused on anything, it runs through my mind, either making me really happy, or making me really sad.
I really over think things too much. It's really dumb.
And I sound like I'm rambling throughout this blog.
Anyways. Spring break is this week. I'm excited for it, and not excited for it. I'm happy because HELLO NO SCOOL. But I'm not excited because all my friends are going to Disney with the school band :/
Then when they get back, my best friend is probably going to Houston for the rest of the week.
Imma miss him.
UGH. I have no idea what I'm going to do.
I think I need sleep. A lot of sleep. To get away from all this shit.
"I feel like a piece of gum that's been chewed on for 2 hours and stuck to the bottom of a table." -Alex Suarez.
Love is shit.
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