By the way

I would like to apologize to the person I wrote that awful 'letter' to in my blog. I realize there is no use hating someone, so I went ahead and decided to be the better person and apologize to them myself. I thought that things wouldn't get any better if I didn't take a step up and do something. I know I said I wouldn't apologize to them first because nothing was my fault. But, I came to realize that there was some sort of my own fault all along. I realized that even though I hadn't tried to take their own friend away, I sort of was for a while. I know how much I hate when I get ditched and ignored by someone so they can hang out and spend all their time with someone else who hasn't been their friend for nearly as long. So for that I am sincerely sorry. I finally came to see that even though I never really intended to do anything, I sort of was doing something all along.
I don't know exactly how well of terms with this person. It's all up to them. I never asked to be best friends at all, but I want to be on good terms since we have many of the same friends who dislike seeing us hate each other. If we could just be friends and get along, I'm fine. I feel like we are better though. There haven't been any rude texts or anything lately, and I'm happy about that. Yesterday we actually spoke the first actual kind words to each other in over a year.
So, for that rude blog, I do apologize to them, but I was mad and I felt like there really wasn't any better way to let my feelings out than through a blog.

Tell me why

Over the last few days I've been feeling a mixture of happiness and sadness. Something good happens, then something bad happens.
In the last few days I have made plans twice, both were canceled. Got asked out by the guy I liked, then dumped two hours later. And felt really close to my best friend, then remembered how distant we are from each other.

I don't see why all this keeps happening to me. Why can't I just get something I want and keep it? I feel like after anything good happens, as soon as I turn my back, it's going to disappear. I hate feeling like I'm never going to get what I want.
Then I get something I want, having wanting it for so long, then it's ripped away from me.

I just want everything to go MY way for once. I feel like I never get a time for everything in my life to just go right. I think I'm now afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens.

Go away.

This is going to be one serious rant for someone. If you can't handle it, just move away.

Dear, -------
OKAY. I hate you.
Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate you.
Got that?
Go away. Please. Get out of my life. Go away. I don't care about you. If you aren't going to leave, then leave me the hell alone. I don't want to hear from you ever. I want you to stay as far away from me as possible. I never want to hear your name again. I never did anything to you. You're just too jealous for your own good. Here's a lesson:
Jealousy is a mother fucking bitch.
I'd learn that lesson now before you ruin everything. I've seen how it's upset your own friends. Your friends. Who are MY friends. If we aren't going to be friends, the least you could do it leave me alone.
Don't try to talk to me. All you do is try to make me feel bad. Well, you accomplish a little bit of that. You piss me the hell off. More than anyone on this planet. Quite literally. I'd rather listen to 6 hours of Opera music than see your face.
It's not really my fault you can't make anymore friends once one of your best friends moved away. But that doesn't mean you can keep my own best friends away from me.
I honestly didn't give a damn when I saw you eating lunch by yourself. I really didn't feel bad or anything. I don't feel bad for you.
I didn't know I could hate someone this much.
Oh. Look. You just texted me. FUCK OFF. I don't care.
You'll get what's coming to you one day.
Bitch.

I hate you,
Molly.

Hello fascination.

"Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about."