The Lovely Bones

Today I went to see the movie The Lovely Bones. It was good. It wasn't as good as the book, of course, but still. It was a good movie. I liked the effects.
It's such a sad story. I can't even imagine how hard that would be. I mean, on both sides. On Susie's side. She was raped and murdered. Waking up one day, not knowing that it would be her last day to live her life. She was only 14 years old. So much that could have been done.
Then there was her family. Her poor father. He seemed so lost without his daughter. His first born. His own piece of him. I can't even imagine how hard it would be to lose a child so young. Then to live across the street from the man who took her from him. THEN, feeling like everyone is giving up on her and him.

It brings me to the thought, "What if you could wake up one day, and all the bad things would go away, and everything would just go right again?"
Every day is a new day, they say. But every day is affected by the day before.
Life can be like the domino effect. You spend a while trying to build it up, but it only takes one domino to fall to knock down them all. Then, once they've all fallen, you can choose to pick them all back up again, or walk away and leave them all on the floor.

Sometimes you get lucky though. Sometimes the line wasn't completely even, and one domino misses the other. So it doesn't take as long to put the rest back up again.

And the sad part is, I know if I got what I wanted all the time, there are other people that would lose what they have, what they love. I don't have the heart to take what they have in my own selfishness, because I know I wouldn't want that to happen to me.

Then, when there are people who don't understand how you're feeling and they think you're going crazy. They tell you to give up, because you'll never get what you want. That's the worst. No one wants reassurance that they'll never get that.
Helping them cope through it, and reminding them that things will get better again. That's what they want. To know that even though life may suck right now, it will get better.

For any kind of pain, a smile is the best medicine <3

El-oh-vee-ee

Sorry for the severe lack of blogs lately :(
I'm having writer's block.

I feel like I'm writing about love too much. But I can't help it, you know? And I know it's no big deal because this is MY blog and I'm allowed to say whatever I want and how what I'm feeling. But I don't know what else to talk about.
And love... wow. Love is just one of those complicated emotions that is hard to go through by yourself, but in a way... you have to. Although so many people feel and know what love is, it's extremely hard to describe and is almost impossible to compare.
As easy as it is to talk about it with other people, you really don't know exactly what that person is feeling. It's so complicated, which is why I guess I like to talk about it. Because it's so complicated that you can never run out of things to say about it.
But when I talk about it, I don't feel like I can ever find the right words to describe it.
I've looked up and read into the word "love" and everything I've read is right in a way, but I feel like it just goes deeper than that. So much deeper.
It's one emotion that you can't put into words.
It's as much pain as it is happiness. It's as much a burden as it is easy. It's so easy to love someone, but so hard to love someone.

GAH.
So complicated.

Anyways, I leave you with this.
"Love is not only blind, but a fool, a stumbling mess falling backwards through showroom doors into atmospheres unwelcoming of his presence."
-Alex Gaskarth.

This is driving me insane.

You take my breath away.

I have an addiction

"Addicted"
-Simple Plan


I heard you're doing OK
But I want you to know
I'm addict
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
[x2]

Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker

One day.

"Girls are like apples. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for them because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't that good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there's something wrong with them, when in reality, they're AMAZING. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along. The one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top." -Pete Wentz <3

AllTimeLove.

"Don't throw yourself at someone for the person
you think they are...
throw yourself at someone because you know you're
both in it for the memories."
-Alexander William Gaskarth <3

Fed up.

I am so fed up with my little sister's sassiness. Like really. She's been really rude to me, and when I tell her 'No' about something, she gets all mad and throws a fit. Fits about almost nothing sometimes. Then the next minute she'll turn around and try to be all sweet and whatever to try to get me to do something else for her or let her borrow something.
Her, myself, and my mother all had a chat about it the other day. I let both of them know how fed up with it I was, and I thought my sister had come to realize how big of a bitch she has been being to me lately. Well, I guess not.
This is the last straw. I'm not taking it anymore. I refuse to let my little sister borrow anything or do anything for her. If she's going to be so rude to me, I shouldn't have to keep giving her stuff and letting her borrow stuff. Especially the fact that I can hardly trust her with my things is a huge factor too. But I'm sick of it. No more.
I'm not going to let her have anything. Maybe she'll stop being so rude and sassy. She thinks she deserves everything, but acting like a baby isn't going to get you anything.
It's only because she is the youngest child. She thinks she is the baby and that everyone should give her everything and anything she wants.
She's 14 now. It doesn't work that way and she should stop trying to make it work.

Anyways. I have to leave for school now.
<3