Back to blogging.

As if you couldn't tell from my posts from the last couple years, my luck with boys literally sucks. I know we all have our problems with relationships and love life but I'm almost 1000% sure that I've got worse than most. For some reason guys have always given me the "I just think of you as a friend" excuse. But I mean, really? Do you really only think of me as a friend? Then, you complain about how you can't find a girl who loves you like you love them. You don't understand why girls don't give you a chance and complain about how you would "make the perfect boyfriend" but no one gives you a shot. Bullshit, my "friend". BULLSHIT. I literally tell you I have feelings for you last week, then you tell me you probably could never have feelings for me, but NO GIRL EVER GIVES YOU A CHANCE? How do you really think that makes ME feel? A girl who gave you a chance. A girl who put up with a lot of crap she didn't have to. Damn, I look like an idiot.

I knew you were trouble when you walked in.

PLEASE. Why can't you JUST be real with me? You know what I want so why won't you tell me what you want? Is it because you know it's something I probably don't want to hear? If so, then spare me the details and don't mess with my mind anymore. It's been too long and I've put too much into being with you to have everything come crashing down on my head. At least if you tell me now I won't have to go through the pain of finding out in the future when you find someone better. If you want me, ....please just be real with me.