A fever you can't sweat out.

By putting my iTunes on shuffle, I was quickly brought back to my past. Simply looking for a song to listen to, I was instantly thrown back into my old thought process and a long stream of amazing memories.
Panic! At The Disco.
That's all I have to say.
They threw me back into who I use to be. I constantly forget how much they mean to me. I always forget what they've done for me. Things that I can't repay. They were kind of my safety blanket for a long time. When something was wrong, when something was good, when I was happy, sad, mad, ect, they were there. They were my heroes. They basically made me who I am today.
They were the ones who introduced me to my love of music. They made music my life. From the first song I had heard, I was a different person. They literally changed me. It was amazing.
I listen to their first album "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out", which is still and will always be my favorite album of all time, and I remember who I was. It brings back memories crystal clear.
For months, that was the only album and the only songs I listened to.
I remember listening to their album, while spending the night with my old best friend, sitting on her floor, talking about boys, talking about music.
I remember sitting on her floor, eating cookies and snocones, and talking about what we wanted to be for Halloween that year. I remember sitting up all night listening to that album and talking about the most random things ever until 6 AM.
I remember the first band shirt I got. It was a light blue Panic! At The Disco shirt. with a girl on the front smoking a cigarette.
I remember being so madly in love with Brendon Urie that I couldn't think straight. I was such a... I don't even know. A fangirl, really.
I could, and still can, sing their whole album, word for word, in my sleep.
I remember not understanding a word they were talking about until I googled what the words meant.
They expanded my vocabulary, to say the least.
I would sit up all night watching music videos, interviews, and anything I could find about them on youtube.
They literally were my life.
Then, thanks to them, I began listening to more bands related to them. I expanded more into their record label and all the bands I still adore to this day.
I can look back at their pictures and still remember who they use to be. I remember who I use to be.
After their second album came out, of course I loved it. I still do. But it was NOTHING compared to what AFYCSO is.
As they changed as a band, I began changing as a fan. I distanced myself from them, more into other bands and other albums.
Now that Ryan and Jon are gone... well... I don't think that band will ever be the same. Brendon and Spencer will continue being Panic! At The Disco, but they won't ever be the old P!ATD that I worshiped.