It's you. You, you, you.

Please love me back?

I've learned.

"I've learned... that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned... that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned... that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned... that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned... that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned... that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned... that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned... that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned... that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned... that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned... that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned... that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned... that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned... that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned... that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned... that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned... that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned... that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned... that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned... that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned... that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned... that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned... that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned... that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned... that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.

I've learned... that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned... that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon."

A fever you can't sweat out.

By putting my iTunes on shuffle, I was quickly brought back to my past. Simply looking for a song to listen to, I was instantly thrown back into my old thought process and a long stream of amazing memories.
Panic! At The Disco.
That's all I have to say.
They threw me back into who I use to be. I constantly forget how much they mean to me. I always forget what they've done for me. Things that I can't repay. They were kind of my safety blanket for a long time. When something was wrong, when something was good, when I was happy, sad, mad, ect, they were there. They were my heroes. They basically made me who I am today.
They were the ones who introduced me to my love of music. They made music my life. From the first song I had heard, I was a different person. They literally changed me. It was amazing.
I listen to their first album "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out", which is still and will always be my favorite album of all time, and I remember who I was. It brings back memories crystal clear.
For months, that was the only album and the only songs I listened to.
I remember listening to their album, while spending the night with my old best friend, sitting on her floor, talking about boys, talking about music.
I remember sitting on her floor, eating cookies and snocones, and talking about what we wanted to be for Halloween that year. I remember sitting up all night listening to that album and talking about the most random things ever until 6 AM.
I remember the first band shirt I got. It was a light blue Panic! At The Disco shirt. with a girl on the front smoking a cigarette.
I remember being so madly in love with Brendon Urie that I couldn't think straight. I was such a... I don't even know. A fangirl, really.
I could, and still can, sing their whole album, word for word, in my sleep.
I remember not understanding a word they were talking about until I googled what the words meant.
They expanded my vocabulary, to say the least.
I would sit up all night watching music videos, interviews, and anything I could find about them on youtube.
They literally were my life.
Then, thanks to them, I began listening to more bands related to them. I expanded more into their record label and all the bands I still adore to this day.
I can look back at their pictures and still remember who they use to be. I remember who I use to be.
After their second album came out, of course I loved it. I still do. But it was NOTHING compared to what AFYCSO is.
As they changed as a band, I began changing as a fan. I distanced myself from them, more into other bands and other albums.
Now that Ryan and Jon are gone... well... I don't think that band will ever be the same. Brendon and Spencer will continue being Panic! At The Disco, but they won't ever be the old P!ATD that I worshiped.

Every rose has it's thorn.

Though it's been a while now,
I can still feel so much pain.
Like a knife that cuts you,
the wound heals.

But that scar...
that scar remains.