Today, my eyes were opened.
Today, I saw more than normal.
Today, I was opened up to, more so than usual.
Today, I saw something different.
I've seen the same things, plenty of times you know, but today... it actually mattered to me.
We're all faced with the challenge of finding who we're suppose to be in the cycle of growing up.
Let's be honest... it's quite a test.
Today, I understood a few parts of the growing up process.
The first part I witnessed was love. Love for another person. In more than one situation. It made the quote "Just because you love something, or someone- doesn't always mean that if you fight for it, you will win." (-Keltie Colleen) run through my mind. God has a funny (or not so funny) way of giving love, and taking it away. In that war of love, I can honestly say I've got more battle-scars that I'm comfortable admitting. But, I'm not the only one with these "battle-scars". Many of us have fought that battle, and ended up empty handed. Yet, even when we crash and burn, we can't help but hang on.
The second part I witnessed was the brick wall set up in us. The fight to keep others out in our own attempt of keeping ourselves together. It's the guard we set up to keep others from viewing us as weak, and to keep ourselves from breaking down. It's not to hide who we are, but what we feel. Not shutting others out, but lessening the impact on our own emotions. I've been there. I built up the wall when I knew something was going to smash it down. When the blow hit, I wouldn't feel pain. I would be numb to the agony. I'm not the only one who sets up this boundary to be viewed as the happier person. I've learned this.
The third part I've witnessed was viewing all of someone. Viewing everything they are. Stripped down, bare to the bone. I saw everything of them, and I liked it. It matters.
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