So much for my happy ending.

I'm sorry I can't be your other half.

It's what I'm here for.

As long as I'm here,
you'll never be alone.

Welcome to my life.

It's not like you need me anymore.
I understand.

She likes to be my bitter-sweet love.

I feel like complete shit tonight.
And things just aren't looking up.

You belong with me.

I LOVE YOU.







It's the hardest secret to keep.

You are my sweetest downfall. I loved you first, I loved you first.

Today, my eyes were opened.
Today, I saw more than normal.
Today, I was opened up to, more so than usual.
Today, I saw something different.

I've seen the same things, plenty of times you know, but today... it actually mattered to me.

We're all faced with the challenge of finding who we're suppose to be in the cycle of growing up.
Let's be honest... it's quite a test.

Today, I understood a few parts of the growing up process.

The first part I witnessed was love. Love for another person. In more than one situation. It made the quote "Just because you love something, or someone- doesn't always mean that if you fight for it, you will win." (-Keltie Colleen) run through my mind. God has a funny (or not so funny) way of giving love, and taking it away. In that war of love, I can honestly say I've got more battle-scars that I'm comfortable admitting. But, I'm not the only one with these "battle-scars". Many of us have fought that battle, and ended up empty handed. Yet, even when we crash and burn, we can't help but hang on.



The second part I witnessed was the brick wall set up in us. The fight to keep others out in our own attempt of keeping ourselves together. It's the guard we set up to keep others from viewing us as weak, and to keep ourselves from breaking down. It's not to hide who we are, but what we feel. Not shutting others out, but lessening the impact on our own emotions. I've been there. I built up the wall when I knew something was going to smash it down. When the blow hit, I wouldn't feel pain. I would be numb to the agony. I'm not the only one who sets up this boundary to be viewed as the happier person. I've learned this.



The third part I've witnessed was viewing all of someone. Viewing everything they are. Stripped down, bare to the bone. I saw everything of them, and I liked it. It matters.

"I feel more alive when I am dying, just a little inside."

I met a new one and he looks just like you...

"You were a hard scar to heal, my love. That was some war your fought to stay under my skin.

'I miss you' still affects me. I guess that is just the long-flowing aftermath of love. You watch the ones who promised to love you forever love someone else. Maybe they miss you. Maybe they are just selfish. Maybe they are just as happy as they are pretending. Maybe they are secretly unhappy and wish things were different. Who knows?


Love doesn't end. Love just floats around in between all the messy stuff life throws at us: people, places, situations and ego. The realization that you weren't validated by someone capable of seeing your true greatness can be hard on your heart.


I say, revel at the unfourtunate limit of their vision.

Poor them, they couldn't see just how bright of a light you were in their life and now you are busy shining for someone else.

Yay you!!! You are a total babeface with a hot career and a pair of killer legs! (or insert your three nice things about yourself...)who is SOOO cool infact that mr. matt nathanson has agreed to come onto your radio show on monday night!

I said I would love you forever. I meant I would love you until I loved someone else."

-Keltie Colleen <3

Don't ever look back.

Teenage dream.

You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a floor out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

He's killing me.

These are one of the nights I feel all alone.

I know she loves you and I can't interfere, so I'll just have to sit back and watch my world disappear.

You've got to sleep late when you can, and all your bad days will end.

"It happens."

1, 2, 3, 4 Take the elevator at the hotel yorba, I'll be glad to see you later.

It might sound silly for me to think childish thoughts like these. But I'm so tired of acting tough, and I'm gonna do what I please.

Valentines Day.

"There you have it, folks. Young love. Full of promise, full of hope, ignorant of reality."