Changes

You never know how much your life changes until you actually step back and look at it. I thought I hadn't changed that much at all in the last year, but the truth is, I'm no where near being the same person I was a year ago. I might not look all too different, but maybe you're not looking hard enough.

Everything has an effect on your life. Every hair cut, change in the way you do your makeup, new shirt, new pair of shorts or jeans, even every pair of new shoes. Every person you associate yourself with, everywhere you go with those people, and every friend you have and lose. Every new band you listen to and even every song you love. Every new favorite food, drink, color. It all adds up, and eventually you have no idea who you are anymore.

If I would have told myself a year ago who my best friend would be, what my favorite band would be, and many other things about my life now, I hardly would have believed you. Actually, you couldn't have given me $100 for me to believe you.

Time flies so fast. I really can't believe it. This past year has flown by like no other. Every memory seems so clear. Like it all happened yesterday. If time continues to fly this fast, I'll be graduated in no time. But I don't want it to. I want to live in the moment and get as much out of life as I can in the next few years.

That's why this summer is going to be different. I want to make as many memories and do as much as I can. I want to hang out with my friends as much as I can. I want to go out more. I want summer '09 to be amazing. And it will be because I'm not going to get wrapped up in other people's drama.

It's suuuummmmmmmmmer!

(By the way, that picture of me was taken exactly a year ago today. NOT the best day of my life. Haha)

Beast

Well, summer '09 is here, as of a few hours ago. Woo.

Wow. I can't believe how FAST this year went by. It feels like the year just started. I mean, I remember last summer perfectly. Has it really been this long? I just hope this summer is better than last year's. I'm sure it will be, because I will MAKE it! Time to make some new memories, and try and do as much as I can.

Three finals today. Home Ec, Biology, and World Geography. They weren't so bad. I think I did pretty well, at least I hope I did.

So far, nothing to do for the rest of the night. I went to the park with Tara earlier. We had a long talk and played some volleyball. We ran around like idiots. Haha, I love that girl.

I have a full day of things to do tomorrow. Friend's house in the morning. Gonna hang with my buds, then crawfish boil with my family at a family friend's house. Haven't seen those guys in forever.

I need a new cell phone. Mine's so stupid. It keeps restarting itself and the battery dies within like two hours of charging it, if I use it. But I have to wait until my birthday to get a new phone. Humph. Grr.

I want to go to a concert soon. I haven't been to one since Cobra Starship back in November. It was a... okay show. Could've been better. But, I've been feeling like going to one soon. I'll be keeping my eyes out for a good band coming. I wish I could go to Warped Tour...

I'm kinda rambling about random things because I have nothing else to do.

I'm listening to NeverShoutNever! at the moment. Christofer Drew Ingle <3

He has an amazing voice. I love that boy :) Listening to him makes me happy. And he has nice hair :D

Lullaby

Did you ever think that maybe it was me that was the failure? Maybe something's wrong with me? I guess you never stopped to consider that, did you?

My chosen songs of the day are:

1. The World Has It's Shine (But I'd Drop It On A Dime) -Cobra Starship

2. Lullaby -The Spill Canvas

3. What A Catch, Donnie -Fall Out Boy

I dunno. They're good. :)

I've realized that these last few days, I have very low tolerance for anyone. Almost everyone has been getting on my LAST nerve. But of course, there are the certain people who know when to leave me alone, and I thank them very much for that. But today, I was sitting at lunch with some "friends" and everyone just started complaining. It made me mad. It's like, "Okay, you have problems. So do I, but I'm not flaunting it around." If they are trying to get sympathy from me, they're not going to. No one's life is perfect, so just shut up. We all have problems, but when you just toss them around in people's faces, it somewhat shows that you're weak, or you're just craving attention. I'm sorry you have issues, but life isn't perfect.

I guess you could say that I've grown up a little in the last few months. I understand that nothing goes the way we want it to. Some people haven't realized it yet.

I've been craving to go to the beach lately. I don't know why, but I've really wanted to get away. Just for one day. Lay out in the warm sun, tan a little while watching the clouds go by and listening to the ocean, play in the sand like a little kid, and maybe I'd even go swimming (which is a huge step for me because I hate ocean water). I'd love to have a picnic on the beach with my friends. Pink lemonade, for sure. I want to walk up and down the beach and collect pretty sea shells. I just find the beach to be such a peaceful place. I always feel good while I'm there.

And of course I have my beach play list :) But the ultimate beach song is of course, The Beach by All Time Low. It's perfect!

Now I have chocolate cake and milk calling my name :D

Later!

Moving foward.

I didn't exactly have a good day today, but it really wasn't my fault. It's just stupid.

So, I was thinking today:

This is the last week of 9th grade. Wow. I can't believe how fast this year went. It seems like school just started. My freshman year was... well, eh. Not amazing. It had it's ups, but there were a lot of downs, but that's life. I'm looking forward summer '09 though. I can't wait to see what happens, how people will change, and see how things will be different. Last summer was... interesting. Haha. Let's just say I don't really want a repeat of it.

Tomorrow I go to school and I have three days of finals. Ugh. Not looking forward to it. But I'll get through it! I just have a lot of studying to do. I'm exempting three of my classes, so that means no school Thursday. I only have a three day week. Hooooorah!

This summer and next year should be great. It should be. I'm not saying it IS going to be, but I'm going to try and make it good.

It's my goal :)

Xoxo,

Mo-lay-lay.

Oh hai.

So I suppose I'll make a public blog for people to read.

I suppose I should start out by introducing myself;

My name is Molly. I'm 15 years old and I live in Texas.

I'm typically happy, but I have my moments. Summer

vacation is coming very soon, then I'll be finished with

my freshman year. I'm an average teenager. I like music,

texting, hanging out with friends, and basically having fun.

I may not have a ton of best friends, but the ones I have

are amazing. I collect little animals that sit on my computer.

I like to read. I'm an easy going person.

I suppose that's enough to say about myself :)