Take this all the way, anyway you want to.

I'm almost positive this is the last blog post of 2010.
I'll just say... I'm a new girl.

Here's to you, 2011.
Don't suck.

I walk a fine line between the right and the real.

I'm not gonna stop feeling; I'm not gonna forget it.

You say it's easier to burn than to build.
You say it's easier to hurt than to heal.
But I say you lose when you give up what you love,
and I've lived my life without you long enough.

So...

I won't do what you told me.
I won't do what you said, no.
I'm not gonna stop feeling.
I'm not gonna forget it.
I don't wanna start over.
I don't wanna pretend that
you are not my lover;
that you're only my friend.

Merry Christmas, Kiss My Ass.

They told me I was lucky
To have my chance with you.
Now, last year’s summer romance
Is this year’s winter blues.
I treated you so nicely
To jewelry and champagne,
But you left me empty handed, yeah,
You left me feeling play-ay-ayed.

Now, I hope you’re happy with yourself
‘Cause I’m not laughing.
Don’t you think it’s kind of crappy
What you did this holiday?
When I gave you my heart, you ripped it apart
Like wrapping paper trash.
So I wrote you a song,
Hope that you sing along
And it goes, “Merry Christmas,
Kiss my ass.”

You say I’m losing my mind,
I thought that for a while.
I tear down decorations;
They remind me of your smile.
I hate that mistletoe, it makes me
Think of our first kiss.
You bit my lip, you pulled me close
And then you taught me how to quit.

Now, I hope you’re happy with yourself
‘Cause I’m not laughing.
Don’t you think it’s kind of crappy
What you did this holiday?
When I gave you my heart, you ripped it apart
Like wrapping paper trash.
So I wrote you a song,
Hope that you sing along
And it goes, “Merry Christmas,
Kiss my ass.”

I’m so sick of calling, you won't telephone me.
No, fuck you girl, I’m going out.
I gave you my all, but our love hit a wall now.
I’m jingle belling, and everyone’s yelling.
We’ll drink till the bars shut us down.
Ain't that just what Christmas is all about.

And I hope, hope you’re happy with yourself
‘Cause I’m not laughing.
Don’t you think it’s so damn trashy
What you did this holiday? (So trashy!)
I gave you my heart, you ripped it apart
Like wrapping paper trash. (Wrapping paper trash)
So I wrote you a song,
Hope that you sing along.
Here it goes, “Merry Christmas, bitch.
Kiss my ass.”

All I need is you.

There is just something about a 2 hour phone conversation with your best friend in the middle of the night that just makes the whole world seem alright.

All you wanted was somebody who cares.

Sometimes I forget why I even try to hard so make you happy. Especially when you really don't appreciate it and you often take it for granite.
But then I'll remember in a little while that I do it because you need it. You need someone to be there for you and someone you can count on, because you hardly have that with anyone else.

Even if I can't be everything you've ever wanted...

at least I can say I tried.

Not to say I'm not happy doing things for you, and not saying you don't appreciate it often. Just know that I will always be there. I'm not going anywhere.
I know you love me as much as I love you.

This is what the world is for; making electricity.

I said ooh girl, shock me like an electric eel. Baby girl, turn me on with your electric feel.

You're better off without me.

Tell me where our time went,
and if it was time well spent.
Just don't let me fall asleep
feeling empty again.

'Cause I fear I might break,
and I fear I can't take it.
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty.

I can feel the pressure.
It's getting closer now.
We're better off without you.
I can feel the pressure.
It's getting closer now.
We're better off without you.

Now that I'm losing hope,
and there's nothing else to show
for all of the days that we spent
carried away from home.

Some things I'll never know,
and I had to let them go.
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty.

You.

I wonder if you read this, if you knew it's about you...

But I'll never tell you.

C'est la vie.

My loneliness ain't killin' me no more.

I can't call it christmas without someone to smile about .

I'm making a list, hell, I'll check it twice,
of all the things you've done in my life.
Then I'll send it your way,
so you see why I love you.

Who would've thought that someone like me
could've fallen in love so easily?
I know that you know that I know what I want.
I know I can't have it but give it a thought.
I know that it sounds crazy, baby.
But all I do is think of you.

Santa, won't you bring me the one I really need?

Oh I won't ask for much this Christmas,
I won't even wish for snow.
And I'm just gonna keep on waiting
underneath the mistletoe.

I won't make a list and send it
to the North Pole for Saint Nick.
I won't even stay awake to
hear those magic reindeer click.

'Cause I just want you here tonight,
holding on to me so tight.
What more can I do?
Baby, all I want for Christmas is you.

You won't know.

I'll stand as still as you need,
'cause you're so good at talking smack, you heart attack.
But you're the apple of my eye anyway.

This one is for you., you, and you

"I am sorry I wished they would eat you alive, and they did.

Those bad decisions make good stories.

I dream about you every night.

In one of these dreams, you forgive me."



"In the areas of my heart there a few things I really, really want. When I get them I inevitably can be seen running full speed in the opposite direction. If you promise to love someone forever, I am well aware that one of two outcomes are imminent:

I will lose them.

or

I will die.


Both equally unbearable."

I'm captivated by you, baby, like a firework show.

The way you move is like a full on rainstorm,
and I'm a house of cards.
You're the kind of reckless
that should send me runnin',
but I kinda know that I won't get far.
And you stood there in front of me
just close enough to touch.
Close enough to hope you couldn't see
what I was thinking of.

Drop everything now.
Meet me in the pouring rain.
Kiss me on the sidewalk,
take away the pain.
'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile.
Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down.
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around.
'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile.

"And I can't... I can't ever wake up."

Don't you breathe for me,
undeserving of your sympathy.
'Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did.

And through it all,
how could you cry for me?
'Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes.
Kiss me goodbye...
and sleep.
Just sleep.

The hardest part is letting go of your dreams.

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night...

"So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light,
I'll put his picture down
...and maybe get some sleep tonight."


I wish it was me in your arms.